my plan to be a freak

I go camping a lot and have had many experiences on this camps.

• sleeping in tin foil
• going to a abandoned caravan right before bed
• bras in bushes
• slutty girls
• the people that really don't want to be there
• to cool to camp chicks
• the new born Christian that has a go at you every time you say "oh my god"
• the fussy kid "I only eat McCain's oven chips no other type of potato (Alex evidently didn't say this)

Well any way me and my friend amber always attempt to get on with everyone nice kind cautious however it always ends up with everyone deserting us or us abandoning them because they're doing something stupid hence the bras in bushes incident.

this weekend however it will be different ....
very different cue evil plan to freak out everyone

1. we will act as if we believe we are truly wizards
2. print out many Zac Efron and wizards of wable place stuff
3. have an emotional break down every time we are parted
4. pretend some women dressed as a man is are dad
5. have boys faces stuck to our pillows

YAY TO BEING STRANGE AND HAVING NO WHERE TO GO FROM HERE .... except to source pictures to print of !!!!!!!

STORY TIME !!!!!!

 "I was walking along the beach with out a top on, with two guys and they only had pants on, then we decided to go skinny dipping, so we where getting undressed and then he" said the girl sitting across from me, she had no intention to make her conversation private and seemed excited to explicitly describe every moment."Umm sorry" I interrupted "excuse me, but I don't want to know about your skinny dipping encounter." There conversation abruptly stopped and went on to more innocent conversations, time past as I busied my self with the work."Yer I had to explain it all again because he was high"their conversation met my ears - okay somebody got high its fine"my mum doesn't mind,she knows I do it, I'm just not allowed to keep the stuff in the house" Oh so you take drugs too. My mind was whirling, I forced myself not to say anything delving head first into my work maybe with to much vigour - I now know not to head butt a laptop.

 A few hours past and I didn't see her till the last lesson, when I was pleased to find out ..."yer my mum gets weird if she hasn't done it in a while" Now I am sorry but this is something I REALLY didn't need to hear "Sorry to interrupt ,again, but I don't want to know about what your mum does behind closed doors"She looked at me, with her overly eye linered eyes, like the porcelain dolly who are 50p at a Charity shop.

"yer I stole this - no my mum doesn't know - I'm just like oh I've had this years"

Finally I gave up and plugged my headphones into my ear trying to block out her voice as I knew she didn't care who know all the stuff she gets up to and I defiantly didn't want to know. As I painted the page of my book and pondered what Fredrick ever show in her, his current girlfriend now she was lovely. At this moment she stormed into the room, her hair partying by itself, with the new year quiz in her hand - "do you remember that time we were on the beach and went skinny dipping... with clothes on" Okay maybe I am biased.

What a lovely story.Now this didn't happen. However Fredrick (because that's his real name) 's ex girlfriend did say all those thinks. But most of the rest was just filling the gaps . I think what I am trying to say is that people need to enjoy their youth more - don't walk on beaches half naked in the middle of the night now -wait - and have a moonlight walk on the beach in some sunny country with someone you love. Don't steal things - wait- till you can afford things. And don't take drugs - wait - then you can also not take drugs. :D

*whistle noise*

" There is less discrimination in children, as they don't feel like they need to fit in, like being skinny and wearing the right thing"

Well I for one can say I think this is complete rubbish and feel relieved to be able to say this isn't a quote from me - sadly its a quote from a girl in my class.

This is the moment, when i realised that actually they aren't the things I feel I need to do. I have no wish to be skinny to fit in, I have a wish to feel comfortable in my own body and to be fit for health reasons - not so I can join the large majority of my year who have you know *whistle noise* and especially not got to the point when "I've just stopped trying not to be pregnant" I was defiantly born into the wrong generation - I like to write letters, I want a record player. I like to spend my free time doing maths and geeking out over Leonardo Da Vinci. I'm not one to go get pissed and get off with a guy, I'm more likely to sit in my room listening to Stories from somewhere or the midnight beast or on bad days the jersey boys - i have been badly influenced.

But you know songs about science, rocketships and pencils now that's a good way to spend time. Playing Pokemon and waking early at the weekend to see the movie, that's the type of person I want to be and love to be.

So where was oh yes, I don't feel as I have to act a certain way to fit in, I think if people just spent less time trying to fit in things would even out and we would get where we need to be so much faster.

Damn I have spent to long writing today, what with this and an English assessment which I dread to think of its results - especially as I now need it to be a b instead of a c.

Forgetting is easy when you shouldn't, when you should now thats when it gets hard

To myself,

Quick reminder.

He WAS your best friend, he doesn't care anymore, he never did. OK.
You have decided to move on, no more of him - look after year 11 he is gone and you're free.
Its on his own terms and you are feed up having to wait for someone to show you how to act around them.

You have new friends,OK one that you better not muck things up with - so that means no falling for him okay - also that would cause HUGE arguments and we don't want that.

I don't want to cry my self to sleep again, forget him.

Katie

Impressing a guy gone wrong

Have you ever tried to impress someone - to make them like you ?  Well i have and have found it doesn't work, when the person in question died on May 2nd 1519 and was supposedly gay. Oh Leonardo how i love you - ( da vinci not de caprio)

I really dislike openly homophobic people - well I think its bad no matter what , but if you can be civil then I can except that. I'm just confused. What gives a cocky 13 year old the right to make judgements on somebody, I'm not one to be angry - well angry to people i don't know (people who aren't Alex),  it just frustrates me. You walk around spitting and making sarcastic comments about everything - don't judge someone with out talking to them, give people time, get to know them. Three years ago if you told me I would be friends with the physics geek, the architecture one , violin girl and that person who use to be a bitch to everyone,  I wouldn't believe you, but now I couldn't imagine life any differently. I have been in the popular group hating life and now I'm happy ish - well happier. So why can't people just except there are people different to you but that's what makes the world exciting, why should everyone fit the mould.

Oh I got all deep and meaning full then. P.E whats the point in dancing and doing gymnastics - I think I'm the only one who loths but loves fitness at the same times.  "I can move in rhythm to a 2 and half minute piece of music if I choreograph for weeks"  yer well I can spent that time toning my body and I know dancers have amazing bodies but we have like 30 minutes its just not worth it - and can't you teach us decent dances ( in more then one way) like ballet something classical, not lying on the floor slowly moving you body up and down to the sound of breathing and coping the same few dance moves where you flash everyone and its all way to cringey ( and people complain and the school musical). Now my opinion is obvious dance isn't my thing this is why i am upset to now that there is a video of me a kwellsy doing the jive, after we have  had an argument and decided we can't be bothered and I am terrible , that's just mess around - how flattering , this was during my fat stage ( fatter then now stage) see fitness would of helped more with this problem but no it was all " Katie can you jump over the length of this pummel horse." i hate when people ask questions like this with obvious answer ( no i cant even  jump over the bench but i looked stupid flailing about like a walrus in the corner so i joined the back of the longest line.)

Well this year has started with a good old rant .
katie x